i'm the first kid to write of hearts, lies, friends and i am sorry my conscience called in sick again and i've got arrogance down to a science perhaps,, i was born with curiosity when i was a young girl,, my dad said, "when you grow up, would you be the savior of the broken the beaten and the damned?" (and) my mom said, "you should be a better daughter!" (but) i'm sorry i can't be perfect.. and now i try hard to make it i just want to make you proud i'm never gonna be good enough for you i can't pretend that i'm alright and you can't change me "I'M NOT OKAY!!" i feel like everybody's got a problem.. i'm losing hope and there's nothing else to show i want to go where everyone goes i want to know what everyone knows i want to go where everyone feels the same tell me why i live like this!! i'm afraid that i lost my self (but) i keep telling my self i'm not the desperate type (and) i'm not going cause i've been waiting for a miracle..